It had been a couple weeks since Blakelee's birth and graveside and Brynn was having the hardest time. From the minute we told her that we were pregnant she told us that it was going to be a girl and that she was going to get a sister. She is the best big sister, cousin, and little helper with anyone who has babies. She wanted a sister so badly, especially after Beckham she didn't just want one she needed one. When we went to fetal studios and found out she was a girl Brynn's eyes filled with tears and she jumped up and down with excitement because she was so excited. The next day she went to school she announced it in front of the whole class, I have never seen her want something so badly. After we told her that she was gone you could see the devastation on her face and hear the disappointment in her voice. The weeks following she would cry herself to sleep saying that she just misses her sister, she just wants her brother and sister here with her to hold them and love them, and asked why life is so hard and unfair. I had several sleepless nights, crying and begging for her to be comforted and to get some answers that we couldn't give her. Every night we sat and held her while she cried my heart broke over and over feeling so helpless not knowing how I could possibly make any of this better when we didn't understand it ourselves.
We let her take a week of school and she was not wanting to go back. A month earlier I had found out that she was being made fun of and bullied at school because of "her situation." These little girls would say to her that everyone in her family died because they hate her and that she is stupid. She began to get very embarrassed and ashamed of our family and whats happened. Her amazing teacher quickly got a handle on it all, but the damage was already done. Now with Blakelee she was scared of what people would say about it. The situation infuriated me, but I tried telling her she can't control other people just how she reacted to it. I worked so hard on having her accept the things that she has gone through and making her realize that she can and will make it through it even though it's hard. Seeing her take so many steps back from that and being ashamed of who she is was so frustrating!
Her adorable teacher came over the Saturday before she went back and brought over some treats and a diary for her to write her thoughts and feelings in, since she knows that is how Brynn likes to express herself. I started feeling a little better about her going back to school but still was crossing my fingers in hopes that nobody would tease her about this because it would be too much for her to take. Sunday night I got a call from the Mascot Miracle Foundation (a non-profit organization that has professional mascots to help children who have severe or terminal illnesses) saying that our amazing friend Jen called them and told them about Brynnlee's situation and they felt like they needed to help.
Rocky the Moose, Kodiak the Wolf, and Felix the Falcon showed up with flowers and a stuffed animal at her school and surprised her at lunch. Her face when we all walked up was completely priceless. She had the biggest smile from ear to ear and kept saying how embarrassing but awesome it all was. They said that Brynnlee is their special friend and that they don't tolerate bullying and it needs to stop. Kids from all over the cafeteria were running up to say hi to the mascots and they just kept all their attention onto Brynn. She came home from school and said that she made so many new friends and everyone thought she was the coolest person to have them come just to eat lunch with her. Ever since her awesome lunch date she hasn't been teased or called names. It made her whole year having them there with her, this was the tender mercy and answer I had been praying for. That foundation is amazing and I can never thank them enough, it meant the world to us!
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